09 Jul When a Runner Is Told to Walk
The idea of easy and tough is different for different people. For one, running may be tough, and for another, not running.
Being a runner for a long time, suddenly being told to not go running is something I wasn’t prepared for. Except that I knew they were right.
I had been sick for almost a week. Then finally one day I felt better. And when I get better, I like to reaffirm that fact back to myself by declaring the power and independence of my corporeal existence….by going for my run. But right after it, I knew I should probably not have done it, or taken it easy. Run a km less or something. I came crashing down all over again.
For many years, my answer to all my problems has been the same: go for a run.
High fever? Go for a run.
Feeling blue? Go for a run.
Stressed out? Go for a run,
Need a break? Go for a run.
Need to untangle your thoughts to take a major life decision? Go for a run.
Need some creative ideas for a project? Go for a run.
Mad at someone? Go for a run.
Stomach not doing good? Go for a run.
So on and so forth. Long ago I overcame the fear of throwing up while running…sometimes when you go for a run, the body revolts and makes you temporarily nauseous or causes ringing in your ears if it is cold. But long ago I overcame those fears. My answer was simple. If I have to throw up, I’ll throw up. Simple.
So those things have never really stopped me. Nor has the residual pain after running. I usually do yoga after running, and when done right, it gives very little muscle pain from the workout. Usually, I don’t have much pain because I am rarely out of form anyway.
So being told to suddenly not run is a big deal to me. I understood it logically. But that doesn’t mean I have to like it.
So I held on and stuck it out for about 10-12 days. And then I buckled. It feels almost like an addiction: you have withdrawal symptoms. So I get this low mood which is incurable by any other means and has no other real reason. Apart from, ofcourse, the feeling like I need restrategize and redesign and restart my life afresh, wipe the slate clean, and I am feeling the weight of that decision a little bit.
But the good thing about running and about being me is that if you really know how to do it right by being in tune with the natural rhythm of your body, you can do it without really hurting yourself. You just need to find that balance and that rhythm. It means listening to your body rather than pushing it. It means releasing stress rather than building it. It means relaxing muscles rather than straining them. It means working out to heal the pain rather than add to the pain.
So when my key workout routine was taken away from me, it put me in a muddle, which in turn forced me to have a greater awareness of myself, and redo everything from a new, right, aware context, rather than just repeat the same actions as yesterday and day before, and week before, and year before.
It was life’s way of making me change my pace of life.